All the energy goes to wrong people, or the the wrong places, even you want something else, its hard to fight is they are so selffish, and arrogant, they dont let you to life, your own life, at all.

These invisible bindings, what you have, drag you to some direction, you want it or not. It has always been your will, it is the people who you want to meet, in a good and in a bad, you never know, whats their path.

I dont know, how they have lived, to have a good relationship, much more, more than the average, I dont know, in which stage, are you at the moment. I just stay at my parents office, doing my own things, I am not suffering, of the distance, but i miss you.

Here people take all their space, its always been like this, as I remember, I am older now, sitting all the time in kitchen table, making food every day, no other things to do at all. I am too tired to say anything, they dont change their lives, after all., .